Sunday, August 31, 2008

Sky Stained

I woke up exhausted today.
The dreams that took place last night were really weird. Let's just leave it at that.

So now our new hallway and part of the old "dining room" is painted in an odd blue color. Like, a steely or sky blue. It looks nice in the light, but it's too dark when in shadows. Thank goodness it's just the primer. Haha!
After watching Dad paint around a bit, I asked if he needed assistance. So, yay, I got to paint! I just did the corners where the roller he was using couldn't reach, though. It didn't take long at all, and before I knew it I was outside spraying out buckets and brushes. It was actually quite enjoyable.

Speaking of the outside world...
Isn't today a lovely day? It's simply gorgeous if I must say so myself! It's sunny, warm, breezy~I love it. Earlier I had gone with Grandma to Hollywood Home Videos to rent a couple of movies and the one thing I pointed out to her that I disliked about this valley was its poor air quality. It's certainly number one on my hate list. I get so envious when I hear my family saying something like "back in my day you could see the mountains and foothills all the way across the valley." It must have been a spectacular view! But, despite our pollution, it still is a nice day.

Also, in a couple of months, I'll be going to Disney Land for the very first time in my entire life. I never really wanted to go in the first place, but I know it'll be an ass load of fun! Our neighbors across the street will be going with us, too. Yay! I suppose my parents and the adults there had been planning this for some time now...Hehe. I can't wait to get away from here for a while.
While Disney Land is on my mind, why is it that they say you have to go there at least once in your life? I never understood that.

Wendy's Castle: I hate you! Just let us beat you!
There's this cursed level in Super Mario World that we just can't beat. We get all the way to the end and almost kill the boss, but we keep dying first! Haha

I don't really think I have much else to say at the moment...

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Two Moons Total

I haven't been able to draw very well lately, and it's starting to get on my nerves. Despite that, though, I'm already annoyed with the events that had just recently occurred. Perhaps that is why I've stumbled upon this massive barrier of "artist's block," eh?

Thankfully I've had the SNES versions of Mrs. PacMan and Super Mario World to take out all of my emotions on, as well as the newly downloaded MMORPG 2Moons. So much blood; I love it! It's sad that I've turned to video games to release my stress...then again, it is quite enjoyable. Dodging fire balls, avoiding Sue, and splattering blood across dungeon walls is great fun! I've successfully been able to keep my mind from wandering too much.

Well, Mom basically knows what's going on now. On our way home from getting food, Hay told her because I think she was tired of me being so down. When my sister said their names so easily, I swear I wanted to dissapear. I can't even mention them without feeling awkward or hurt. Haha! Even though Mom asked, I think she already knew who wrote that letter that she found on her car.

Today I didn't get/have to water as many plants as usual. Dad is going to attend to the lawn care so I couldn't get too much wet.

Oh, and by the way, the waffles that Hay made were great! That little waffle maker is literally the sex. Hah!

I can't really think of anything else to say...other than I'm doing better than the previous days. Or at least I think I am. Every now and then those words from that letter will cross my mind, but they don't hurt as much as when I read them...'cause I don't belive the majority of them. I do feel somewhat guilty for being so harsh towards it, but, seriously...it was a little unnecassary and was sent at bad timing. I don't feel any hate or anger towards who wrote it, though. They were only trying to be kind and thoughtful, it just didn't strike my fancy like they had expected, probably. I don't know.

To end this entry:
Yay! We might get to was bounce houses again soon!

Friday, August 29, 2008

Bitter Creature

I'm wretched.
It's as simple as that.

When I woke up this morning I had completely forgotten about that letter and the contents written inside. It was probably because I was still in a hazy, dreamy state. I didn't want to move. I didn't want wake up. But, did I really want to keep dreaming such a dream?

She slammed her hands down on the table, raising her voice; tears in her eyes. I only watched her cry and listened to her wavering words, my expression dull and bored. I mumbled a few words back to her, and she just sat down, diagonal from me.
We were in this strange cafe', and it was strange how no one even bothered to turn their heads and listen to our argument.
I just brushed it off like the bitter creature that I am.

A tuxedo festooned my body as I sat between demonic twins, my arms draped around their shoulders casually. They looked the same, yet different. One of them my mere reflection. Look at what I had become. Like her, I'll turn on you in an instant.
Her hand was resting on my shoulder as she leaned into me.
The other rested her hand on my leg, head supported by my shoulder.
I had become her nightmare. My name alone fills her heart with hatred towards my existence. But she would squeeze my leg reassuringly, letting me know that it was all a lie.
I only sat there with that same dull expression, looking straight ahead; a hint of emerald green flickering in my eyes.

Oh, what have I become?

Unfamiliar fingers stroked my face; my body nearly limp and completely beaten. I did this to protect her. But I blamed myself for being too late. Her brown eyes; her blond hair and those sapphire tears staining her perfect cheeks. I did this to protect you. She was the perfect girl. So thoughtful, so nurturing, so kind, so pure... I know as I lie here bleeding that we will never be together. Yet I remind myself that I will find my way to her. I will always find my way to her. Her voice was different. There was no Spanish accent. Her hair wasn't dark. Her fingers played complicated instruments, they didn't draw. I know I've seen you before. I know exactly who you are. I've seen your brown eyes and blond hair somewhere before; I cannot deny who you are to me. She was my sweet Chasity.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Little Finch

To my disappointment, I woke up later than usual today. Well, Dad woke me up to say bye to me like usual this morning; to save me from falling off of the edge of the bed. I guess I really am a clumsy, restless sleeper. Haha! But my ass wasn't out of bed until about eleven-thirty. Bummer.


After taking a nice shower, Grandma took my sister and myself to the mall. Now that was fun! You always have a blast and many good laughs when you're with that woman. Can't help but love her to death!

It's funny 'cause Hay bought a waffle maker (at last)! Now we can make delicious belgian waffles for breakfast tomorrow morning. I can't wait! I'm so excited about that.
My sister had been wanting one of those waffle maker things for years! And now, thanks to what we were payed while washing those bounce houses, she was able to purchase one (it was on sale, too. Whoo!).

I bought myself an art book I had been wanting. It's going to be fantastic to use! I also learned how much money I had left one a collection of Borders gift cards I've been saving. All I have to say to that is WOW.

The pet store we went to was awesome too!
It was hilarious looking at all of the animals. They're all oh-so adorable. In fact, I'm planning on getting a lizard as soon as my room is done.

So, today was simply great!



Oh, and one more thing:
Earlier - before watering - Dad showed me some finches that were gathered on the feeder Mom hung up. They were so cute! Dad kept mentioning how beautiful they were. He was all into it! So kawaii. And they were beautiful, too! We had to be sneaky though so they wouldn't see us. Hehe

Finches are adorable.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Lyrical

A lot more stuff happened today than yesterday, but I'm just too tired to type it all out.
I have been writing a couple of songs lately...but, unfortunately, I am a terrible song writer. Haha! It's amusing to throw words around and try to sing it in a decent manner. Not only am I terrible when it comes to song writing, but I am also a not-so-decent singer.
I never had that gifted voice. Like I care, though. -smirks-

So, this is just a cheesy, half-assed entry. Blah, blee, blah.
I totally lost my personality, didn't I?

Why, yes. Yes you have.

Gee, thanks.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Sweet and Low

This week hasn't been as eventful as last week, but that's alright.
I think I'm slowly starting to discover a sense of "peace of mind" of sorts.
Something inside of me is dying to find someone to hold, though. I shall not go into great detail with that though. I suppose it's too personal to me.

I got to see my drum teacher, Phil! Well, I do have drum lessons every Tuesday. It's just so great to see him. I was so nervous about going today because, for some reason, I haven't been practicing as much as usual. Because of Phil, though, everything was better. He made me feel so happy! He's such an understanding guy.

My homework is almost done.
I just need to finish my poster for Etiquette, finish up a little more math, do something for Careers, and do some weird article assignment. No biggy!

At the moment I'm trying to take a moment to sit back and organize my thoughts, while at the same time playing some online arcade games on Fetchfido! Haha

I made a new friend, too. So I'm thankful for that.

I just can't seem to write lately...I'm trying to keep this blog updated at least everyday, but my entries have gone dull and what not.

I'll make it up later!

Monday, August 25, 2008

She's Dropping By Tomorrow

I'm feeling troubled now.

Earlier I was lost in this happy fantasy world of mine while music was blaring into my ears. And - soon after - only worry consumes my heart. I'm not going to say why though, for publicizing such information would be...unfair? It's weighing too heavily on my heart right now. Hopefully that will explain why my writing is so...off today.

Other than that, I missed school today. Don't really want to get into it at the moment...but I assure you, it's nothing bad.

Mom took my sister and myself to her library today to help with some work. It was pretty fun and we had more than a couple good laughs. We were sorting out library rulers for every kid in the freaking school. It wasn't hard or anything, just tedious. But I enjoy being able to help out my mom. Also, a friend of mine dropped by unexpectedly. I suppose she's going to be helping out my mother with things around the library. That's sweet of her.

I don't think I really have anything left to say.

But I do want to apologize for seeming so dull and gloomy. I'm sorry.

No Clever Title For A Rant

I didn't post yesterday, did I? Well, I have a valid reason for that. My day was pretty much consumed by a mountain of homework. I completed my daily chore of watering the plants as well, and Dad took my sister and I out to lunch. It was really fun! My Dad has a sense of humor and a personality like no other. I couldn't ask for a better father. My homework still isn't done. I've got just a little bit left, though, so it's nothing agonizing.

I wonder how everyone is at the public school. I know that I must be missing out on a lot, but that's alright I suppose. School for me is going wonderful, if I must admit. It's all thanks to my teacher Mrs. G. She is simply amazing. I enjoy getting to see her every Monday. Despite my not-so-social life, I am happy out here in the sort-of-country area. The days have been increasingly warm, so I have to wait to water the plants until about six or seven.

Ah, the plants. I love watering them. There's so many that I'm at least out there for and hour at the least. But it gives me time to think and sort out my thoughts. Not only that, but it makes me feel accomplished too.

I'm sort of just ranting today, aren't I? I guess I do that often. Maybe...that's what a blog is for? I don't know. But that's what mine is for! Haha.

Gee, I can't wait to get my hair cut. It's getting a little too long for my tastes.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Alive Like the Stars

Lately,
I've been getting more tired a lot earlier. It was seven yesterday; six today. I guess I'm still whipped from working or something. Not only that, I stay up as late as I possibly can. I suppose you can say that it's self inflicted.

Today I went shopping with Mom and Grandma. We had to go and pick something out at Babies R Us for my cousin's upcoming baby shower. Afterwards, while Mom was doing a little grocery shopping, Grandma and I waddled over to the Borders book store (I love that place). I was on a mission. I had been planning for the past forty-eight hours or so to purchase a couple of books for my new pen pals.

This morning when I went to get the mail, the mail box was odored with the scent of permanent marker. A giant envelope that was mismatched like a stray crayon because of its shimmering uniqueness was sitting inside the mail box amongst the more 'professional' and guaranteed-to-bore-the-hell-out-of-you envelopes and junk mail.

Instant excitement.

I can't even describe how happy I was. It was like my birthday suddenly came around again, or maybe it was like Christmas decided to drop by early. Or maybe both!

I got two sweet letters from my dear friends along with a CD, a movie, drawings, and a cute little wolf charm. It was so much fun to go through! It means so very much to me, too. I love them both so much.

So I decided to buy them a couple of books in return...since all I sent was this feather I adored and a pack of gum. Haha! At least my letters were long, right?

But, now, at thirty minutes til midnight...I am sitting here...pondering...Hey. Maybe I should start my homework!

Crashing sounds like a totally better idea. Like...100 times better!

Well, I'll drag my worn carcass around for a while longer. Something just seems to keep me from sleep anymore.

Maybe I am not so lively like the stars are tonight.

Friday, August 22, 2008

I Like Where We Are


"Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but by how we react to what happens, not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life. A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events, and outcomes. It is a catalyst, a spark that creates extraordinary results."

- anon


Day three of the bounce house washing business. Like the past couple of days, today was simply fun and quite laughable! I think my sister decided that spraying-Whitney-in-the-face-while-she-was-trying-to-talk-every-chance-she-got was a grand and hilarious idea. How can I protest to that? It was funny! In fact, she thought spraying me whenever I walked by was a hoot. Perhaps I should consider stealing the hose from her next time, neh?

Instead of accidental slips-and-falls (some were accidental), we decided to slip around on purpose. Once you get the insides of those bounce houses wet and spread some soap suds around...it gets very, very slippery! But, if I must say so myself, it is tremendous fun despite how stupid we look flopping around helplessly on our asses.

Having all of that to do during the day, I've fallen behind drastically on my homework. I usually like to commit a couple of hours to get the work done faster, but this week has just been rather busy. Seeing that we're only washing bounce houses every other week, though, I'll be able to complete my homework early and practice drumming a bit longer this next week.

I like being able to help out my uncle. He is such a hard worker and deserves a fine, long vacation. And I can't help but love the guy to death! Helping him out with his small business has actually let me get to see him more and get to know him better, just as going to the charter school has allowed me to get to know my grandma a lot better, too.

Not only do I feel accomplished after all that work, I also feel happy and stronger. I must say, I am very thankful for the wonderful family I have been gifted with. My social life outside of the family isn't/hasn't been the greatest, but I'm continuing to hold my chin high. I'll be starting junior college a year early, so I'm sure I'll get to meet new people there! I can't but I can wait.

Hah! Now I'm just ranting nonstop, eh? I guess these dancing fingers of mine are really helping my mind filter itself onto this virtual page.

I like that.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Pen Pals

I am so excited right now. A close friend of mine and I exchanged addresses so that we can write letters to each other! I can totally spam his mail box rather than is e-mail inbox now! I shall also be writing to his sister as well. They're both a couple of sweethearts.

So, once again, another bounce house wash adventure! It was, again, a laugh a minute today. More slipping and sliding and "lesbian moments." Haha! This time we washed a combination of 1/2 bounce house; 1/2 slide. Yesterday's were just two huge water slides! And as usual, my sister sprayed the hell out of me every time I tried to talk. I got her back, though. It was hilarious! Grandma also sprayed us when she got the chance.

So, basically, life is still busy and flourishing I guess you could say. I'm trying to stay positive and keep my chin up no matter what this existence decides to throw at me!

Yeah, this was a somewhat short entry...but for some reason my writing muse is a bit iffy at the moment.

I'll most likely be posting again tomorrow anyways!

Buh-bye, take care, me love you long time

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

My brothers and my sisters! the results are in

"Wow. That was a bit more difficult than I expected. But freaking fun!"

Well, the results from the "great adventure" are in. Now we just need to wait for our uncle to drop by and check out our very first batch of work!

Washing those ginormous beasts was a bit more difficult than I had calculated. Once it gets the suds on it...let the slipping commence. Fortunately or unfortunately, there wasn't as much ass cracking as I had expected. There was once, though, when my sister was trying to go down the slide smoothly, but is was a FAIL. I was at the bottom ready to stop her from meeting her doom, which I did. The results of that little fiasco was just a bunch of laughing and my own sister between my legs. Oh, how wrong that sounds.

"That was the most lesbian experience of my life," is what she told me.

Yes. Yes it was.

Well, it's not as dirty as you're thinking.

This experience did inspire to write a novel called "Suds in a Bucket." Ha!

Now Hay and I are running around with skanky looking hair. As usual, mine tends to curl a lot worse than hers - damn you naturally curly hair. You bring the feeling of "woe is me" to the remains of my heart.

I'll probably add on to this entry after our uncle inspects the bounce house water slide...things. All in all, it was very amusing. Fun, too. Grandma pitched in and helped out all the way through. We got to have chocolate muffins afterwards!

Good news! Nobody filmed us slipping on our asses!

:D

Edit coming shortly.

EDIT:

Well, after trying to make an attempt to yank out about a million splinters festooning my toes and bottom of my foot...I decided to give up and get some dinner.

These next bounce houses we are going to wash are going to be epic! Since Hay wasn't there while we were cleaning up the last batch and dishing out the new...she gets to clean off every single palm leaf. Muwahaha! But she doesn't know it yet. Don't tell!

We had to dispose of some tree branches since them and the bounce house were getting, shall we say, intimate.

But I'll give more turkey stuffing on these babies after tomorrow's adventure.

Thanks for reading! Ta ta!

You Love Me But You Don't Know Who I Am

Why do I write in these virtual diaries when I know that no one reads them?
Perhaps it is because I am paying tribute to the writer inside of me.


This is horrible. Horrible! I can only taste this sweet, pulp infested orange juice on about 1/4 of my tongue. Oh, the torture!

So, today - or this morning rather - was yet another dentist appointment! I got the crap numbed out of my face so that I could get my fillings in for a couple of cavities (oh, yes. shame, shame on me). I still didn't get these ridiculous braces off...BUT! I am pretty positive that me next visit is dooms day for 'em. Oh joy!

And just as a reminder: Yes. Yes this shall be my new blog until I get comfortable with NuTang again. LiveJournal was getting annoying with all of its adds festooning my page. I show ill will towards such a menace!

Other than that! Today shall be especially exciting...and...if I must say so myself...fulfilling! My dear uncle owns a bounce house business, you see. My lovely sister and myself have the honor of getting to wash these blissful inventions. If you happen to wander by my grandmother's house...please keep all video cameras to yourself. Filming me slipping, sliding, and hitting my ass on the concrete is NOT for your viewing pleasure! But you are allowed to point and laugh, seeing that THAT is mostly involuntary when it comes to human nature...But, yes, the washing of the bounce house water slide things shall commence in about twenty minutes from now. This'll be sexier than a wet t-shirt contest.

Ha! The feeling in my face is starting to come back! Victory is mine.

Anywho, I just wanted to rant about what was going on today since, at this moment in space and time, I have nothing better to do.
What's better than this, you ask? Well, as soon as Haley is fluent in speaking French and I am fluent in speaking German...we can yell at eachother. If she throws in any of that Spanish nonsense...she's cheating.

Sayonara!

Ha! I'll just use Japanese.