Where have I run off to this time?

At the moment, everyone but me are in the swimming pool outside. Mom, Dad, Hay, and Jessica. I wish I could join them, but due to certain reasons I will not be able to swim for the rest of this week. Must I clarify?

I guess I'm not really cut out for blogging, eh? I hardly ever update anymore! And a lot has happened and a lot has been going on. For the most part, things are getting better.
Thanks to being stubborn and never giving up, I found out that I am not hated by some old friends. I have to tell you...I feel so much better now. It's like a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders. I can breathe again!
On a more mellow note...a dear friend of mine died some time ago. He was like a brother to me and I loved him to death. I still do love him. Always will.

Yesterday morning and this morning I helped Dad with his classroom since school is starting back up again. Are you all ready for another year? I also got to know Mrs. Dayap better. ♥ Afterwards, Dad and I went to the recycling center and came home with about $50. Not bad.
Mom made an AWESOME dinner. Broccoli and cheese soup with sourdough bread (Though I really don't care for sourdough. I think it's a lie.) and a small glass of fruit that included black berries and peaches. MmMM!

I've been researching some modeling agencies and such also. Modeling is inspirational to me and I think it would be fun. I figured out that becoming an artist for pay might be something I'll reconsider in the future. Maybe.

After the circumstances at my old public high school, drawing just wasn't the same. Then I started to stray from it and only drew every now and then. It wasn't as rewarding as it used to be.
Then I figured out that I sometimes had drawn for the praise of my family and friends because it made me feel good and kept me going. I do not want that. I want to draw for the pure pleasure of it. It makes me happy; I don't want to make it something that I am forcing myself to do. I used to just have fun drawing until that certain point in my school life.
I will ALWAYS love to draw, though. ♥

UPDATE SAY WHA!?

Over the past few days (minus this day) I have been helping my Uncle Ray wash his bounce houses. Didn't this blog start out with me carrying on about that last summer? Happy first anniversary blog! Anywhom, like always, washing those things is a blast. I really enjoyed working with my uncle and getting to spend time with him. His gratitude was the greatest reward. I feel a little sad that he is selling them, but it means less work on him! So I am so for it. ;D

Today I helped my grandmother with some planting. I got to play with cow manure! Yummy, yum, yum. I got to see the chicks again, too...and they are getting big! All the dogs were over there running around in the pasture...and most likely flailing around in cow poop. Blehg. << Then we went to Burger King! I go orange juice and some apple fries. 8D

This night was the graduation ceremony for my old high school for the class of 2009 (my sister's year). It was pretty neat. Went by sort of quick...and dad taught me how to make an origami box! Also, Amanda was there! We so hung out. And I got attacked from behind (sounds dirty!) from Nick! That was funny...I was in mid sentence talking to a friend I have not seen in a long time and then BAM! out of no where. x3 Oooh, and I saw my bestest friend from years and years ago, too! She was so cute all dressed up. I looked like a total nerd. ;P

And my graduation already passed...too bad I didn't blog about it then because I don't have enough motivation to keep typing. xD But it was great! One of the coolest things was getting to walk with my sister. And when one of the girls got up to make a speech, she looked back to all of us and said, "I am going to rock this shit." Aaah, that was too brilliant. Everyone giggled at that. x3 Her speech was great, too! Very nicely done. My dad and aunt had gone up to her to tell her so after the ceremony.
At home we had most of the family come over for party time! That was really fun! I wanted to steal Grant's yellow pants...and I think he wanted my shirt. xD And Apples to Apples was hilarious...AS ALWAYS!
One of the sweetest things were the rings that Mom and Dad had had made for us. They're so cool!

This past Monday we had a little family get together for Kevin. He is being shipped to Afghanistan (sp?) for a year! We're all going to miss him so, so, sooooo much...and he has two babies and a wife! It must be hard...
But it was super fun getting to see him. We played Imaginiff.....and...that...was...AWESOME. So fucking hilarious! >D
As usual...Tyler was running about being a crazy daredevil. ._. He was jumping off the swings and shit...
Hah! And I was busy playing with Madison chasing balloons around....balloons that she called her babies. x3 When they started to bounce away she was like "OH NO! MY BABIES! SAVE MY BABIES!" And then she'd start to chase them just cracking up. That was funny!
Awwww, and I saw the poor girl come out on the porch crying so I went over to her asking what was wrong...she said she tried to get to the toilet but didn't make it. xD; She was sooooo embarassed and devastated by it! So now she has a pair of my YuGiOh underwear. xP

Kay! I'm gonna finish watching Dead Space now! It is on Chiller...it is very violent! I love it.
-snuggles-

...

No. I don't want to talk to anyone. But sometimes you just need that human contact to keep yourself in one piece. I got a voice mail (and some messages) from J earlier today. It sucks that her birthday party has been canceled, but it's a good thing that she won't get to see me. To answer her question: no, I'm not ok. Not so much anyways. As for the family, I think they're all fine. Just tired from recent activities, really.
Sorry I haven't updated here in a while. Life is just being life, and it's hard to find much motivation to do anything like this for some reason. The reason I am acting so...blah is because I got a hold of a yearbook. I probably shouldn't have looked through it. But how could I resist?

"Moving on is simple, it's what you leave behind that makes it difficult."
"We always thought we'd look back on our tears and laugh, but we never thought we'd look back on our laughter and cry. "
"Friendship must never be buried under the weight of misunderstanding."~ Sri Chinmoy

"When I needed you most when I needed a friend, you let me down now like I let you down then."


"Sometimes your closest friend is your greatest enemy." ~Jason Fong

Strange Smoothie

Okay, so...I'm trying to choke down this experimental smoothie I threw together...and it is not going so well. I think I put in too much ice. Added some berry yogurt and a bit of orange juice for flavor, but still too much ice. It is all watery and what have you. I fail at life! -facepalm-

Despite my said complaints in the above paragraph...
Mom and I just got back home from In-Shape City not too long ago. It was fucking brilliant! I love to work out, and this was just plain fun. Tara, our personal trainer, made us do this interesting activity circuit with all kind of different exercises and techniques. She is so damn sweet. I love her to death!
It was fun getting to hang out with Mom again, too. While we were doing the weight lifting bar things Tara mentioned that we could make funny faces at each other since we were facing one another. But we were so busy trying to keep our abs in! And Tara kicked my tow because it was straying out a little... xD
All in all, it was great fun.
Oh! And this other brilliant thing that the gym has...a virtual...bike...riding...thing...that you sit on like a bike...and it's kind of like playing a first person racing video game. You steer through this virtual world and if there are hills or whatever you can feel the bike pedals as you are pedaling getting tougher to pedal. You can race the person next to you, too!!
Aaaaah...love, love.
Then Mom and I did the treadmills for about twenty-five....thirty minutes. That was cool, too! It was weird getting used to it and I was making jokes about falling off. Then when you did get used to it and had to stop...it felt like the ground beneath you was still moving! Waaaah.

Ewwww...this smoothie is so straaaaange.

Born to gold, but gowned in purple.

I just finished trying on my graduation gown, and I have to say that it feels rather strange. I had gotten used to the idea of graduating in black and gold, but my path out of high school had suddenly changed. So, now, I'll walk wearing purple and silver. It'll be hard to do, but there is no way I'm gonna NOT walk. When it comes time, I'll go and attend the ceremony for all of my friends when they graduate. It won't be the same as getting to walk across the stage with them, but it'll be good enough.

Basically...the first thing I did this morning was jump in the shower. Dad, Haley, and I all worked pretty hard to clean the old room yesterday...and it looks SPANKIN' nice. So, I showered in there with the iHome on. After that I went outside to get some air and stretch my limbs...then I went to get the mail...then I had breakfast...then I cleaned my room...then I tried on my graduation gown...and now here I am blogging.

Tonight after drum lessons, Mom and I are going to In-Shape City to learn how to use all of the equipment. She's all excited about it; so am I. I can't wait to start working out. It'll feel so good!

Oooh, and on Saturday my Dragonball Z doujinshi Attractive came in the mail. I was so excited. Then I went to Relay for Life with mom. That was fun! I liked watching all the dudes dressed as chicks prance around.

Well, I need to go ahead and find more chores to do. Maybe do a little homework. Have to find a decent space for a glass tank, too!

I like her. So I chase her with a wheelbarrow.

I went with Grandma a little while ago to the feed store in town to look at the baby chickens that they got in. You all gotta believe me when I say that chicks are probably the cutest little baby animals ever. I love them! After picking out a feeder and waterer, Grandma bought six babies to take home. I call the dark one Chocolate. <3

Well, the title of this blog refers to yesterday when Hay, Kevin, and myself were helping out Dad with planting some plants and transplanting a tree. It was fun! I really enjoy physical labor. You can really have good times with the family when you all work together to make something beautiful. :D

I can't really rant on in this entry because I am going to be working on homework today.

:/

Whitney ist siebzehn erotisch!

Well, no longer am I two years younger than my sister. This day marks the day of my birth seventeen years ago. Man, it's been that long? Is this supposed to be a time for me to sit back, close my eyes, and look back on everything that happened in my life? I must say, I feel pretty proud knowing that I've survived over a decade of winters.

I gotta say...today is starting off well. Both Mom and Dad wished me a happy birthday this morning (though I was half asleep) before they left for work. Then, a little bit later, I wake up to Roscoe nuzzling my head. Trixie was snuggled up next to me. "Dogs are not supposed to be on the couch!" I only thought it, though. I didn't care. I'm surprised they both jumped up here, really...

Right after...I got up and stumbled around. I went straight to the shower. It was a long, long shower. I couldn't get warm! It was bloody cold in the house. Then after thaaaaat, I went outside for a while, picked up the mail, got some breakfast, and here I am now.

Oooh, I thought this was so cute. When I was outside last night Hay came running out and was all "Come here!" I interrogated her reasons for wanting me to evacuate my perch, but she INSISTED and so I went to her. Then she glomped me and wished me a happy birthday before scurrying off into the house. It made me laaaauuuugh.

You know, it feels like just another day. The only thing different about it is that I have this little glow of happiness following me about everywhere.

No longer am I sweet sixteen. I have baked in the sun and arisen as sexy seventeen!

Pillow, please.

Well, the TV is on now...and Mac is in a trance watching The Fairly Odd Parents. All I have to do is keep myself from crying. After reading something I suddenly feel really...out of it; for some reason it makes me want to cry. Pathetic, I know! But I can't help but feel at a loss...
If I could, I would talk to my parents about it. For now, though, I think Amanda is the only one I can really tell. I probably won't bring it up again. I don't want her to assume that I am really advancing to...a certain option. It's just so...overwhelming...because I don't know what to do about it! Now that that's swimming about on my mind, I can't seem to think about anything else...grrr.
Levi called yesterday evening. AGAIN. I feel bad for not answering, but he is somehow able to get me to talk about certain things. Also, I wasn't at home...and usually when he calls I'm busy. Like Amanda, I can talk to him easily...about how I feel, what's on my mind...and in return, I pry stuff out of him. I ask about him and how he is feeling...I learned a lot. The thing is...I think Levi might have been talking about what I've told him to other people...because how else would such information get about if he is the only one who knows? It doesn't make me mad, though. I know that under pressure, stuff can just slip. But I'll keep the majority of my issues on the DL from now on.
Thanks Amanda and Levi for being there for me and letting me talk to you.

This is really bothering me. I'm dying to get this out to someone; I can't even let it out here. Writing it down won't help so much because...it's not really having someone to talk to...someone to give you advice. With time I might be able to figure some things out...but...
But for now it is keeping me from doing what I need to do like homework and taking care of myself and doing chores and...! Just gah...

I guess in a way I feel trapped.

At least this couch is comfortable. It makes me think...maybe I just want someone to snuggle on.
This time...I need a pillow...

The tramp, Oline.

"Who pays that much attention to their cereal? I mean, come on, Whitney, who? Huh?"

So, my colorful sister is bouncing around the room 'pissed' off about something she read in the news. She said it was about how this corn flake looked like the state of Illinois was sold for like $100,000 or something. It makes me laugh because she is just so flustered by it. She totally reminds me of a clucking hen sometimes.

"I feel like I'm breeding the Xbox now."

What the fuck? Seriously. What was that about. No, don't even ask why she said that.

Anyways, so, Amanda and I stayed up a little too long the other night. She passed out in the morning, but I didn't let myself get any sleep. Man, did I pay for it later. I felt sick. Serves me right! Poor Amanda felt sick, too. I hope she is feeling better. We had so much fun, though...until yesterday because we were both so tired and just "blah."
Oh shit, and she was hella beating my DBZ game...up until we had to fight Kid Buu. D< He is such a little phanny bandit! All in all though, A would be a filthy liar if she said she sucked at that game.

Oh, sonofabiotch, I almost forgot. We have our new furniture! The living room looks so fab now. Hay thinks it looks like one of those houses featured in a magazine. For shizzle, though. It's comfortable and all that good stuffs. The TV is back where it belongs, too.
Mom and Dad both passed out numerous times on the new couch. I just told myself that they were enjoying their new furniture...and that's one of the best ways to do it! Hay said she tried to get them to go to a REAL bed to sleep, but they'd say 'no, just a few more minutes of tv -pass out-'
Aaaaah, geeks.

As for today, I've just been trying to rest up as much as possible. That's why I got up late...I think one of the best parts about being so exhausted yesterday was getting to fall asleep in the back seat of Dad's truck. Even though the seat belt buckle was digging into my ribs and I managed to drool a little on my arm, laying back there was....nice. x3 Call me a weirdo, I don't care! When we were at the furniture store, too, I almost passed out in the car a few times, and whenever Dad opened a door I jumped...he laughed at me. <<; And I even passed out on Hay's bed earlier! At first I was curled up and dozing off in the chair, but she was all, "You can lay on my bed if you want." Yaaaay. <3

Basically, what Amanda and I did...in no particular order...work on the science fair project, play DBZ, mess around on MySpace, nap, wandered around the science fair, got mochas, stayed up too late, had apple cider, played more DBZ, tried to find Finn, swayed around on the swings, talk about tramping on Oline (we named the trampoline Oline! Clever, neh?), talk about a lot of stuff with Amanda, and a lot of other stuff.

My little kid cousin is here so I better get goin.
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee for now

Rantalantata

My head is killing me...not in that it hurts...it's just all swimming and overwhelmed feeling. I don't know what to do! Give me advice! I need to figure this out.
Talking to Amanda lightened my heart some, I'll say that. But it brought back memories as well...and I was glad I was finally able to talk to someone about a recent...condition of mine...
I hella trust this girl with what I say. I love you Amanda! I know you won't go around telling everyone about what I've been talking to you about.
We sat on the bench outside of the Denair Charter Academy together after wandering around the fair for a while...and she hella just listened to what I had to say. I felt totally comfortable with opening up to her. I could glomp her right now! She is sitting right there after all...messing around on my computer being silly. She's staying the night, too! And we might have breakfast together at Hamilton's on Saturday. It will be brilliant!
Seriously, though, having someone to talk to...fucking...fucking awesome. I've been keeping so much inside lately...and I am so thankful for Amanda. My precious Sheep...my precious electric strawberry! Oh, Kami-san, I love the pink she has in her hair!
I miss a friend of mine who recently...well, we both agreed that'd it be best if we didn't...talk or see each other anymore. It's been a bit hard, but I've ruined her life enough, eh?
I guess I am totally ranting now. I could go on forever if I wanted to...but I shall not!
This cheap horror movie called Abominable is on right now...Amanda and I are HALF paying attention to it...eheheh.
I'm getting a bit hungry now...and the hyperness from the mocha is wearing off...daaaaarrrrnnn.
I'll end this entry now with a...ah...erm....
I DON'T WANT TO DO FUSION!!!!!


....kiss him.

Gel Pens

I think she dropped those gel pens on purpose. When she knelt down she somehow set her hand over mine and squeezed it. I couldn't help but feel suspicious...though, in a way, I guess that grip she had on my fingers was something that let me know she was still trying; that she's not giving up....she's still hanging on. Despite everything...all of the pain she has been through...she's still fighting to be positive about life.

I'm still neglecting this blog quite excessively, aren't I?
Let's see what I can list:
I got my senior t-shirt, May 20th is the big day, I am almost siebzehn, I had a wild afternoon the other day with Aunt Lisa, Tyler, and Hay while helping them with their science fair project, I set down the camera, forgot to turn it off, and accidentally filmed my own ass while setting something up, I am currently working on my art project for the science fair, the blanket on my bed is super ultra soft like a marshmallow cloud, my room is slightly rearranged, Dot and Katrina are back in the Western pasture, I finally figured out that the newer horse's name is Cash, I am almost done with my checkered print vest, I am really excited because my family might start going to In-Shape City (I love gyms!), I purchased another DBZ doujinshi, I can't beat stupid Freeza on DBZ Infinite World because he is super strong and has all of the life bars, I am currently watching How Clean Is Your House?, there is a spider that lives in a hole in the cieling out in the band room (he likes to visit me while I'm practicing), Amanda and I are getting together tomorrow to decorate her science fair board, I want to hula hoop, Mom and Dad's 21st anniversary was on the 19th of April <3, aaaaand there is a LOT more...I just can't think of it all at the moment. Brain dead.

I have nothing more to say at the moment.

prankalicious

I can't quite make out what the expiration date is on this fruity juice, but if I slurp a chunk I'll know it's a bit too old to be devoured. -sweatdrop-

I am being lazy with updating this blog again. Well, things have been busier than usual...and hot damn! This new hair gel that Dad and I purchased is strong. Now I can tell that my hair is getting longer, too... TT-TT

Anywhom, basically what has been going onnnn...
> Testing, homework, and just school in general...
> Drum lessons...
> Sewing lessons...
> Chores and house related projects...
> Watching my kid cousins every other day or so...
> Running around like crazy here and there (trying to get out of the house more often)...
> Parties and hanging out with friends...
> Pulling weeds with Haley! And hoeing too!
> Drawing/sketching
> Cooking homemade pizza!
> Running around with Grandma...
And a lot of other things! (not in that particular order, just mixed in everywhere of everyday sort've).

Now I am going to work on an April Fool's prank with Haley for the parent units. Muwahahahahaha!

Scrambled Eggs

I just finished devouring the first batch of scrambled eggs I have ever made by myself...with NO supervision. Though, it should be common knowledge I suppose. And I am sixteen... I took in what Hay said yesterday when she brought up her first time making scrambled eggs. It was her first time making them and she said "Something HAD to happen" when the eggs hit that frying pan. So, I went with that when I started to cook...something's gotta happen. And something did. I dare say that they weren't the most marvelous scrambled eggs (I hope I don't get food poisoning), but they had an enjoyable taste probably because I felt accomplished. I need to work on my timing and organization...but I must admit that it went rather well...despite burning myself in the beginning after I turned on the oven. I touched the oven after I turned it on wondering when it would warm up...and it warmed up FAST. It was HOT! I felt like a retard. :P
So, for breakfast today, I had scrambled eggs mixed with cheese and ham and a dash of salt and pepper. ^^
I am satisfied.

Honeysuckles & Blossoms

Today has been more of a tired sort of day. Like...one of those days where you just feel like lying around and thinking. Hay seems to be feeling better, and Mom just left to take her to see a nurse. So that's good.

Right now I've got my history textbook in front of me...gonna try to finish up this class, German, and sewing tonight. Then I can spend more time with my little cousins during the weekend. :) Also, Holly's party is tomorrow! Should be fun.

Along with tomorrow's events I am finally going to get my hair cut. That'll feel so great! I've been looking up some styles, and so far I am most pleased with these:

I really like the spike mohawk look for some reason. Maybe because it has some flare and is fun. :P I can't wait!

Just a while ago I decided to take some pictures of the honeysuckles outside. Why? Because they can taste so good! And they're pretty.


Also, to end this entry, almond blossoms! Looks like popcorn from afar. <3
I took the blossom pictures a couple days ago; I'll post the better ones on DA later. :)

Acid Reflux is a B*tch

Mom and I just got back from the store a little bit ago. We went to get some apples and other things for Hay since she is not feeling so well. Acid reflux must totally suck crust infested monkey anus. I feel so bad for her. At the moment she is in the bathroom. I wish there was something I could do to help, but whenever I ask her if she needs anything or something she says no. I think she prefers the company of either Mom or Dad when she feels ill like this.

So, anyways, strutting around in Save Mart wearing my Zelda jacket, Marvel super hero pajama pants, and Hello Kitty sparkly socks was pretty fun...even though Mom and I were both somewhat tired (her more than I). There was seriously nobody there. It was empty and quiet and clean and all of the late night employees were really nice. I had fun, to say the least. Mom even spoiled me more than I realized.

Behold...the fruits of our labor!

I'm gonna wait on eating the Hello Pandas and YanYan sticks. I want to share those with Hay when she is feeling better. As for the Apple Chips...call me an oink-oink, but I am currently finishing those off right now. What can I say? I'm hungry. Besides, a late night snack won't hurt! And, holy crap almighty, I LOVE Nesquik chocolate milk! It is so heavenly and divine! It, as well as the Jumex, shall be devoured either tomorrow or the next day. I need to save my provisions!

Oh, and those pajama pants...my fault for not having them done! You see, there was the whole strap issue...which was really quite hilarious...but for it to really be funny you would of had to have been there. Basically I just sewed the wrong strap with the crappy cutting and I was like "Wow! I cut like shit!" Then I found the right one and I was like "OMG! Karen, I sewed the wrong one!" I was laughing so hard (for a few seconds) I almost cried. Then I sewed it wrong...and...yeah. So I need to take a step back is all, really. I shall be done with them by next week, I swears it!

But for now...

One of my latest arts. Vegeta-san poster! <3

On a lighter note, Ocy (October) was so cute this morning. Before Grandma took me to school for some Cyber High tests, Hay and I went out into the pasture to play with Ocy for a while. Such a fun little goat! Well, she's not so little anymore...haha.

It was fun seeing Mrs. G, too. She's always so nice. She's the best! And apparently she has a new kitty. More on that later though, I'm a bit too brain dead to really post anymore. I'll probably be pulling off an all nighter though so I can watch Hay and listen for her if she needs anything.

Goodnight world. Well, goodnight to all of you, anyways. Sleep well! And good morning to those who are arising (yet to arise)!

I hope poor Haley starts feeling better by morning...I hate it when she isn't feeling good...I feel so bad!

WAITER, THERE IS A HORSE IN MY RANCH DRESSING

Oi, so I just got finished tackling peeling a tangelo. I must say...I am a very poor fruit peeler. Such a mess, such a mess. But, boy, I tell ya, that tangelo was amazingly delicious! Fruits have gotta be my favorite foods on the face of this planet. Whenever I think of those girl scout cookies or something along the lines of sugar related goodies I think 'Blehg! I'd kill for an orange!" At least I am thinking healthier, no? :P

And, seriously, what the hell? All of the dogs are barking and carrying on like they do when they chase the horses up and down the fence back and forth, and I snap at them for such absurd behavior...that was when I noticed a third horse in our pasture. 'Oh crap,' is what I thought. But, really though, I am not surprised. Gordon's animals always seem to find their way over here. Seeing that that third animal has got a rope and branch stuck to it, I better run along and do something real quick, eh? Freakin' neighbors and their freakin' animals. >3>

Oh, wow. This is terrible of me...but I am watching Gordon in my pasture trying to reclaim his horse through the kitchen window. Perhaps I should make my presence known and cheer him on? Or maybe I should remain ninja-like and stalk his activities in the safety of my home? I feel bad just staying in here...but I don't feel like getting mixed up in this situation. Besides, what the hell would I do? Get in the way, yeah. -_-; Oh! Everything seems safe now! Gordon's got his horse it seems. Well done, good man! What a show!

I decided to go ahead and go out. Gordon keeps calling me Haley. <<;
Hey, I was good for something! I lead him to the other pasture so that he could get his horse safely back into his. I think his horse is shy of me, too. Well, it's no shock really since we've never had a human-to-animal relationship. I'm just glad nobody got hurt.

Now that that's settled...back to being lazy!
Too bad it's getting chilly out here...I was enjoying the warmth. Soakin' up the sun like a dozing lizard, yeah! Can't wait for the summertime. Summer means wamrth. Warmth means hottness. Hottness means swimming pools! SWIMMING POOLS MEAN SLIP 'N SLIDES! These tears...they are tears of joy and excitment.

Basically all that I am doing is waiting for sewing class to start. Maybe I'll finally finish those pajama pants! That'd be rather brilliant, you might say.

Due to this...ah...sudden urge to blog, I fear that I have reduced myself to the art of ranting. It's alright, I suppose...just throwing in mixed thoughts here and there...it's better than nothing!

Oh, dear. I just remembered. Next week Phil wants to record and film me playing Rain. I can't help but feel that tiny bit of nervousness in the depths of my gut, y'know? I mean...c'mon! I'll probably make a total idiot of myself. Even if I do, though, there's always next time. Never give up! You can do it! Self motivation is a-okay!
Oh, by the way, Rain is the song by the band Breaking Benjamin. What I am playing might be a little different because we wrote the music sheets by ear, but it's basically the same thing. On the CD with the song Rain, the band apparently put on a different version. Why on earth did thay do that!? They sacrificed the drums and the 'screaming' for a rain instrument. But that's ok, because I like both versions. ^^

K, so, either tonight or tomorrow I'll try to post some pictures. You all gotta see Roscoe still! And Trixie...and how much October has grown! No more Chin, though. He got hit a couple weeks back. He was seriously the lovliest cat in this whole damn universe! So sweet and cuddly...I hope he is adorned with all of the bestest kitty delights that one can ask for in cat heaven. I love you, Chinners! I would go on about how he was the most awesomest cat ever, but I poured my heart out to him in one of my DA journal entries a while back. Don't get me wrong though, I love that cat to death. And his mother Cookie, too, who also got hit not too long ago. I love them both.

Let's throw around some good news like a couple hundred handfuls of rainbow confetti!
I started my homework early. Omg, so awesome, huh? It's about bloody time I got a headstart. >D

Ok. Hands are getting cold. D:
I'm gonna scat now and do some more homework.
Chow!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TnaWEStXPho <3

Catching Up

"In the heat of the night we are having a fiesta!"

-Heat of the Night, Aqua

Ok, so, I think I've mostly caught up with all of my school work. All I've got left of late work is about two or three simple assignments. It's about time I got my ass in gear, neh?

I have been extra lazy (unmotivated?) when it comes down to blogging. I mean, a lot has been going on...I just haven't jotted down any of the current events or thoughts in my head. I think when I want to blog about my thoughts or what has been on my mind I will write that all down in a private journal from now on. Well, I'll express and talk about the positive things, or complain about something I don't like, or rant about this or that here, but I don't think I will be sharing my deep, personal feelings with the public anymore.

Right now I'm being a lazy bum. My leg all thrown up on the corner of my sister's desk, typing away at the lap top, playing the Sims 2, and being frightened by Trixie's large eyes. That is the definition of nerds gone lazy. Just not doing anything terribly productive. And I had a mocha frap, too.

Guess there's just a lot on my mind and I want to filter it out somewhere. So, hi guys! Long time no see! What's up? How are you? Anything new goin' on lately? Causing trouble as usual? That's what I thought you said.

1. What's up?

Making mischief as usual.

2. How are you?

Been better, but in a good, content mood.

3. Anything new?

Well, my neighbor is going to start to teach my family karate.

I finally bought Season 1 of Dragon Ball Z! -dies of happiness-

4. Causing trouble?

Refer to the answer to question one.

So, let's catch up! Answer those questions in a reply so I know what kind of trouble you have been getting into.

^_~

Just Something Really Quick Since I Can't Sit Still Long Enough To Type Out Juicy Details

What to say, what to say?
It's been quite some time indeed since I last updated this here blog of mine, eh? I must be so lazy! Or, perhaps...do I have a life? I am crossing my fingers and hoping it is the second one.
Okay, so, a summary. Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh...currently I am an insane DBZ addict and watch YouTube videos of Sexy, Naughty, Bitchy Vegeta (seriously, search that on youtube). I am drawing often and am still taking drum lessons. Oh! I guess I didn't update this blog with an entry about the sewing classes I am taking now, did I? If I did, I forgot.
Check out Zambi's gorgeous art! I met her in sewing class! Go, go, go! http://zambi.deviantart.com/
I completed a bag and am finishing up a pair of pajama pants. I will be sure to take photos!
I'm somewhat behind on school work, but I am taking care of that!
Tonight I shall be accompanying my grandmother to go and see my little cousin in his karate class. It'll be cute! Don't tell him I said that...
Also, Grandma and I went to 'super' WalMart today! It was really clean, had nice large isles, bigger than the other WalMart, and nicer people work and shop there! Success! But we thought maybe it wasn't THE super WalMart because it didn't have fresh produce.
We also went to Jack in the Box, Beverley's, and Joann's.
Then I came home, goofed off, cleaned my room, took photographs, fed the animals, blah, blah, blah.
Hah! I forgot to mention! I cut my own hair this morning. I woke up irritated with the length of it, pulled out the scissors, and CHOP. I am deeply satisfied though now the back of my head is uneven.
Cheers!

Flip the bacon!

Still behind on homework is where I stand at the moment. I've got eight chapters of Nathaniel Hawthorne's bloody novel The Scarlet Letter to read. I'm also behind in German, too. I forgot my text book at the darn school and haven't been able to retrieve it yet...but, guess what? I'm all caught up in math now! Bloody freakin' YES!

Putting that blasted school work aside, today went along rather nicely. During the morning hours and the first couple of hours into the afternoon I worked on homework. Kevy called and wanted to hang out earlier, so I told him to wait a couple of hours prior to coming over.

At about four-thirty said boy and his little sister, Mac, came knocking on the door. We jumped on the trampoline (well, I mostly jumped them), we shot some hoops together, retrieved an arrow, pretended we were fighters, rode in a race car, rode in a rocket ship, rode a dragon, rode a dog and a cat, jumped some more on the trampoline, and then I walked them halfway across the street back to Grandma's. That's the, ah, not-so-detailed version of today. I'm glad they had fun.

I can't make this entry blossom with scrumptious grammar and fluffy details 'cause I gotta get to work.

Chow!

Lonesome

Gah. I miss her. I wish we were still friends, but her being away from me is probably the best thing for her...the best thing I can do for her. Still, though, I have this longing to be the best friend I can be for her. I have to fight random urges to text her cell.

Ah, anyways, life is going alright. I'm satisfied. Hay showed Mom and I this test that told you which animal you were; I got a Penguin. She got a Bat. And the results that Mom got didn't resemble her too much, so we didn't count it. Haha!

Kevy was over just a while ago, too. We were playing some games and drawing and what have you until he had to go home.

Uhhhh, I guess I don't really have too much to say. Sort've tired, so that's why my post probably seems off. Sorry about thaaaaaat!

Honestly, though, this is basically how I felt most of the day. :) Or was it yesterday...? I can't remember now! >D;;

Moostache :D

Mmmm. Orange juice.

I'M ON A MISSION,
I'VE MADE MY DECISION,
like a cripple running a rat race

having a blast by GREEN DAY

Aaaahhhhhhhhhh. Today was a lot more comfortable than yesterday, that's for sure. My mood was brightened when Grandma came over and asked if I wanted to go to WalMart with her. Twas fun! She said she thought I'd like to have an outing and that made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside! <3 I love you Grandma!!!! Oi, I'm a little concerned for one of my friends. She seems...upset. About what, I have many ideas, but I can't push her to tell me. She wants me to leave her alone after all.
I had a dream with her in it last night...but I can't quite remember what happened...we were talking...and there was a lot of other stuff going on, too. Gahr, I hate it when you can't remember dreams! For some reason I can't think straight...and I don't know what to type next. So, either I'll edit this post later or I'll just post a new post all together when my brains aren't scrambled anymore. xD

Bombshell

Sooooooooo, the first sewing class was alright I suppose. I've been a little irritable today, though, so I think that's throwing off my honest opinions about everything. Next week will be better. If I remember to I'll make a decent introduction about my teacher, classmates, and the current project later.

Ah, and it seems there's another homeless dog in our corner pasture. Unless it belongs to Gordon or something. But I feel bad for it...it seemed so frightened. I don't think Mom is too fond of the idea of taking in another dog. She has a valid reason, but I can't help feeling bad.

I think today wasn't so great for everyone.
One of my very dear friends got in an accident and broke his collar bone, Mom has seemed a bit stressed, and even Hay seemed irritable this morning. I think the women are doing good now, but I'm worried about my brother. He says he's fine and not to worry, but how am I supposed to not worry! I love Slade-sama...
Oi, and even Dally is...sick...or something. And I even think one of the other horses is constipated...unless I heard wrong.

I wish I had a scanner so I could post my yaoi 'smut!' It's just been hangin' with some other drawings that require a scanner to be posted; I wanna get 'em scanned soon. Don't know how or when that'll happen though!

On a brighter note, Hay's desk is coming along very nicely. My Dad's a wonderful woodworker, and he's making my sister a beautiful wooden desk. I want one, too! 'Course he planned on it before I even considered sucking up to him...or was that the bed frame? Though I feel somewhat guilty, he'll stop at nothing to make a second desk. In fact, he enjoys the work. Even if I tell him that he doesn't have to make another ('cause I'm all cool beans if he doesn't want to, y'know?) he'll disagree/protest. Ha! I'm happy either way because I get to have him as a father.

Homework? What homework?
Yes, of course I have homework! I totally slacked today...but I plan on finally snapping out of this odd state by morning. I promised Mom that I'd wake up...GET UP...earlier. I mean, I woke up at, like, 5am today, but when I opened my eyes again, it was 10am. Grrr...five hours later.

Ah, well, I ain't in the mood to type in a more positive tone. A little frail on the ha-ha-ho-ho side of things at the moment...Sorry!

Silky and soft doesn't sound suggestive does it?

Mn..g..aaarrrr.........I...finished it....ahahahahahahahahahaha!

Ahem.
So, I finally finished that drawing I have been working on since last night. No, it didn't take me twenty-four hours to draw. I worked on it between chores and outings. I was actually just going to leave it as a pencil drawing...but then I inked it...and colored it...and completed it! I feel...rather victorious. One thing I miss, though, is finishing a drawing and sharing it with my friends. Damn, we had a bloody blast sharing our art with each other. I tell you, it was one of the best things ever. Thankfully Amanda still requests stuff from me. Good Sheep!
One of the hardest things about said drawing was drawing characters I have never drawn before. -facepalm-
I have a blank sheet glaring at me from under my elbow right now; I plan on starting another drawing...but I'm plotting. More fan art, or a sketch-up of originals? Durrrr...

Eh, it's sort've warm in here. Maybe it's 'cause of the robe I'm wearing. It's so soft and warm! Thank you Aunt Marchelle. <3

So, tomorrow I'm finally starting my sewing classes...and I'm a little nervous...but that's typical for me. I'm trying to be more outgoing, I swears it!

Cabin Fever is on. :D And Hay is occupying my bed to watch horror with me. We totally dig the haunted, ghost hunters shows. Rock on, demons from hell and ghosts who don't know they're dead! >D

Woah...I left this page open and sitting here for forever. xD

"Disgusting! No, I do not want to imagine even one more slimy little-eahg-aah!"

♥ http://gam.egoism.jp/kill/pict.html ♥
click the diamonds and see if you can guess which one is my favorite
oi, but be warned...thar be yaoi over yonder. that means maleXmale!
^.~

Yeah, I'm obsessed. Can't help it. It's just too cute!

Anywhom, I'm rather grateful that school is back in session. I really missed seeing Mrs. G every week! It was wonderful to see her again, and we got to catch up with each other, too. So that was fun. Though I am behind (only a little) in three of my classes, I am glad to be back! I'm finally pulling my act together, I think. 'Bout time I did, yeah?

Ah, and I met David today, too. He was the guy who was installing my sister's carpet earlier. Funny and nice guy. He went to high school with my mom. He called me outgoing...haha! How flattering, 'cause I really do wanna be more outgoing.

Oi, I'm obsessed with Dragon Ball Z! VegetaxGoku! Goku is seme, Vegeta is uke! >D I want to go to WalMart and start collecting the season box sets. D:

If you want a good laugh then watch this! (Well, you'll probably only laugh if you're a retard like me and love DBZ ^^;;;)

My Sacrifice

Nope, nothing depressing! xD JUST WATCH. >3

Homework & Me

Boy am I tired. I better do as much of this skanky homework as I can before I pass out. Didn't expect to return home this late.

Today was fun, really. I went with Mom to see the movie Marley & Me with my aunt and cousin. Gee, I thought that movie was going to be all shits and giggles, but it was more tearful! Like everyone was saying, this movie is a watch-at-home sort of movie. The commercials and advertisements for it do not in any way warn you about how sad it is. A lot of girls had to go fix their make-up in the bathroom, let's just say. Mom was whimpering every now and then next to me, and, hell, I was trying REALLY hard not to cry. Insane! But I ain't spoiling any of the movie. Haha. You have to go see it to find out! Awesome movie!

Oh, and between John and Sebastien...of course I thought of a gay romance betwixt the two! It would have been so cute, actually. Oh, me and my love for yaoi...you also have to see the movie to know what I'm talking about.

Afterwards, we all went to Red Robins. Grandma joined us then, and I sat there for more than an hour I'm sure listening to the girl's "gossip." I was really entertained by them. It was interesting to listen to them and what they had to say. There's a lot more I know now about certain things that I never realized before, and some of the facts that totally passed my sight are now in plain view. Some of it irritates me for certain reasons, but I'm not going to get into that.

Okay, instead of typing another novel for you to read I better get a move on and totally cram...hitting the books is not something I wanna do at the moment.

...I'd rather be sleeping.

But I got myself into this. This is my punishment for being a procrastinator of school work all Christmas break! It was fun.

Toodles!

Ka-me-ha-me-wha?

Oh, gee. I have homework!?
Well, of course I do...I just...never...wanted to do it...
The plus side of it, though, is that I finally get to learn German, learn how to sew, and only go for ONE HOUR a week! I'll miss Haley's company, though...but, then again, I will be at home every day with her! Just gotta spend an hour a week at the school. Damn, this independent study certainly has its lovely traits.

Oh my Cazic, the dogs were devastatingly annoying earlier. I'm sorry, Lucy, but you were the worst! I was so glad when Mom finally came home and STAYED home! I felt just as forlorn as the dogs...they've 'tortured' me to the point of losing all rationality! Mom called me a baby...
Ya see, the dogs (mostly Lucy and Trixie) get upset when their mother (my mom! she's mine you mutts!) is absent from our territory. So...they whine. Lucy is the most annoying whiner. Roscoe is alright, and I can't help but feel sympathy for Trixie (damn her cuteness!).

But, currently, I am trying to start my homework. Math first...get the stupidest out of the way, no? I am being distracted by DBZ fanfictions! Oh, the horror...I never thought that it would come to this. In fact, I never thought that I'd like Vegeta and Goku as a pair! At first I was all for VegetaxBulma, but then my 'innocent' eyes were tainted with VegetaxGoku yaoi doujinshi! Curse me and my deep passion for yaoi...

So, I guess I am being distracted by numerous things (counting DBZ). I have the TV on which I'm not even watching (it keeps me company!), I am blogging here with mindless rants, and...ah...that about sums it up I suppose.

I do have a secret feeling of what can be considered melancholy latching onto the icy coating of my black heart. Er...I mean, deep down, I feel a bit sad. I don't know if I should really publicize what it is...since it's something personal between a friend and I. Hell, I guess I really shouldn't even be mentioning it then, right? But this is a place for my thoughts, ain't it!? I have every right to abuse it with my nonsense as I please!

Putting the gloomy situations aside, I'm going to go and investigate the other corridors of the house for a moment. Maybe I can snag some grub!

...

Okay, it was cold out there and I accomplished NOTHING. Well...I did get to see mother dear and learn that she is going to make some tacos. Hoorah!

Kay...I need to stop ranting and get to studying.

Ka me...ha me...

HA!


-instant transmission-

I swear, a almost busted up laughing (tears and all) when I saw what is dancing below this text.

" What I thought was a dream, A mirage, Was as real as it seemed, A privilege..."

Happy New Year!

I must say...Nick's party was really fun. I'm glad I decided to go.
I got a ride from Levi's grandparents (they are so sweet!), so I also had a blast on the way there and on the way home. We did a lot at Nick's place! I am so exhausted today...haha!
And, wow, I was totally shocked to see Nick's gorgeous house! It is sooooooooo ridiculously nice!
What we did (I'm too tired to type out anything decent. I'm sorry!):
> Played Rock Band (I suck at the drums! They're nothin' like the real thing!)
> Plotted a horror movie with Levi (it was so hilarious!)
> Explored the flood plains and rivers (it was dark!)
> Played "Baby, I love you. Please smile." (I suck at that game! At least I got Holly to laugh! muwahahaha!)
> Spent a lot of time with Ashley (such a sweetheart! she...reminds me...so much...of....)
> Had sparkling apple cider!!!
> Sat around a fire pit! whoo!
> Watched I am Legend and Jackass 2!
And...I'm sure there was more....just a bit hard to think right now.
I need a nap.

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